Thursday, 17 April 2008
Yawn of the Day
Good afternoon, I really don't know what to ramble on about this week. At the moment I feel a little numb & am planning a trip to the pub later on! Rich is'nt aware of this. I've submerged myself in crafty stuffs & am getting quite good at that, not much thought about anything else though... ho hum. Nothing profound this time round, just mellow thoguhts. I don't even know if I feel hyper or relaxed. Ever had that feeling? There's no distinguishing between them, which I find a little disturbing. Crazy Kitsch.... =^.^=
Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 08:44
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
2 AM
So, it's 2 am.... i'm doing my little 24 hours without sleep thing.... have spent too much time on ebay, have painted one thing, have taken some photos. i have severe back ache & i SWEAR i can hear things. i mean things that i shouldn't hear. like unnatural, "i know it's only in my head" things.
i do quite enjoy this though, the feeling of isolation it gives you is overwhelming & outside is so quiet. it's quite peaceful really. but it doesn't stop me from looking over to rich & thinking "wish i were tucked up in bed". sleep, i've gathered, keeps you sane. i know my hearing has gone funny. i can hear hissing ten times worse that normal tinnitus.... i want a picture of the corridoor but i know someones gonna see me & think i'm mad...
oh, & he downstairs must have recieved his letter today... hahahaha you're gonna get a £5000 fine you pathetic excuse for pond scum! toodle pipski.Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 18:03
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
i feel i should
today has been a strange one. i saw that someone was getting married. i thought, no you can't you're far too unhinged to do that! what, is it a chat marriage? advertised on their god-damned msn account! wtf? who does that? well, not lonely people, everyone's lonely, are they not? do you ever get the feeling that you're more profound than most? that there's something in your mind that grasps the complete & utter insanity of the world around you, & from that you can see that the whole human race is like a bunch of sewer rats? now, see, don't get me wrong... i love life, i love the feeling of being alive, or existing, you choose. but i just think that maybe we're all a bit "emo" & thats why we crave attention, we want to be loved. that man downstairs making all the noise, he wants someone to tell him everythings ok, don't worry, you may have had a breakdown but things will get better. i'm not saying i'm gonna do that! in no way am i the good samaritan, i don't hug strangers, if you get me. but, all he wants is love. atleast, the beatles tell us that's all we need.Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 06:29
annoying neighbours
Ah, suffering once again, that fook-tard from number 47 Kedleston Court {if anyone wants to go give him beatings, fine by me!} has kept me & rich awake all night with his moronic singing, shouting & banging on the wall {"man next door"? anyone?} why oh why can't they just throw him out!? the lettings agency says they has served notice on him but we have another 2 months of this! i don't think i can cope.... environmental health is our only card to play now, & hopefully they will be able to shut him up! i feel so stressed, i feel like i'm pulling my hair out! the tenancy agreement should be changed... it should have a period of about a month where if you are a nuisance you can be told to leave! GRRRR SHUT UP!!!!Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 01:21
Monday, 31 March 2008
things that i've done that i'm not proud of
in the Misc Stuff area you might see some little painties that i've done. Some for my sleep depravation project, others, from a time ago..... there will be more.Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 08:13
today is the first time
hello, i'm hrekkjavaka astarkort, a 24 year old fine art student from derby, england. i'm keeping a kind of online diary, for what? i'm not sure. what i do know is that this may probably serve as some kind of ranting page for when i feel a little strange... at times this happens, and for some reason i always get a feeling in my bread basket, i have to do something, anything, but i can't stay here in this flat all day wondering what it is... so the pub is, on occasion, a place of refuge. or maybe shopping, yeah i like shopping. but being a so called "artist" (i never liked that word - i always thought of my work as thoughts that i show to people, but never art) i have a tendancy to create things....
Hrekkjavaka Astarkort // 02:30
